Saadeh was red with anger at my last answer. Once again the 111 sign appeared on his forehead and he said in a high voice:
-Whoever is not content with my leadership be it a central committee member or
not let him go home and rest. I am not going to say things that will make this or that party executive happy. I say what I say for history and for the record. Wars are not fought with emotions. Whoever fights in a war must be ready for it and must have made preparations for it from men to equipment to arm and military leadership. I don't see that in the Arab governments because they are unable and not serious for such a task. These governments are not even ready to take real responsibility…
Saadeh stopped and continued to look angrily at our eyes. We were unable to talk to him any more. A few moments later we started to understand that he was right and. We were now more confused than before.
Saadeh then continued:
-I reiterate to you comrades what I said in my letter dated November 2, 1947: “The personal and defeatist politics that made the Palestine Issue reach this point is the same as that of the Issues of Cilicia and Iskandarun that resulted in catastrophes. Return to your areas and wait for new instructions. Have complete faith in your leadership. Have faith in your ideology whose victory will be the only complete victory by which the nation will be saved from its catastrophes.”
At that moment and while we were listening to him, it was if a new light started shining in our path. The truth that Saadeh pronounces was now simple and understandable. We now came to the understanding that he was right all the time…
We stood and saluted him and went out. We walked a little thinking about his words and still wishing that the Palestinian issue would not turn into a tragedy. After some time I told my friend:
-I hope that Saadeh is wrong.
-But he is the leader. We don't want him to be wrong. May be we want him to be wrong only this time so that we don't lose Palestine…
Days passed by very heavy and very slow until it became clear to us and to all that Saadeh was the only one who was right and we all were wrong…
